Healing back…

I am healing, slow but progress it is!

I am also starting a new project about my professional image. I am also working on my business, such as preparing a business plan etc.

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Finished writing the new screenplay…

Yesterday, as I fell asleep for 5 hours midst of the day, I had to wrote 20 pages of screenplay for the pilot episode in four hours! What a speed! I hope it will work out well for the director and as well as the TV Channel. Today the director will show this new screenplay to the producer and the rest of it is wait for an answer.

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One of the worst days revisited…

This toothache is killing me head.

Another round of antibiotics are killing my gut.

My landowner sent me an SMS “Increase the rent payment 100% or get out”

I feel so alone today. I cannot fix anything.

It “kinda” follows like the movie…

I have good luck and bad luck at the same time.

One after another. Last week my dream job offer came, then happened the urticaria. It was itching & burning like hell! I had a dentist appointment that I missed as of the severe and constant itching all over. Went to a doctor about it and he said: “We don’t know why urticaria happens. (Doctors, eh?) Just take these antihistamines. There is no cure (I know hun) but you can manage the symptoms.” Another auto-immune! Well, I took those antihistamines and they made me sleep all day and forgot about the dental problem.

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Have news for you! The screenplay meeting with the director was amazing :)

This is my first time for writing a screenplay ever and the director said “Good job!”

Not certain yet, but I will probably be hosting the show!

The screenplay will be sent to the production firm on Monday and it will meet the project manager of the TV channel on Tuesday. Afterwards, we will wait for maybe 2 days maybe 2 months 🙂 Fingers crossed!

Today also one of my friends called and we talked for 2 hours. I missed girl-talk! Girlfriends are the best!

So far so good, and soooooo happy 🙂

Alex

Finished writing the screenplay of the pilot episode :)

Today, I will have a meeting with the director 🙂 I am so so so excited 🙂

As I try to write the screenplay down, which took 17 pages for the first episode, I had to learn about writing for screen. It was harder than I thought. However, this made me learn how to do it for my filmmaking project. So, if this documentary do not pass the producers, it will be ok for me as the time I’ve spent is worth it on the learning basis!

Love,

Alex

I am a case study even worse than Cotillard…

I’ve just watched 2 Days, 1 Night movie starring Marion Cotillard, who was laid off during her sick leave as she was suffering from depression. She was informed informally by her coworker about this. Very similar to my case. But…

As I look back now, my case was far worse than her:

1. Economically, she was married and her husband also works, they own their own place and car, so no rent but a mortgage, which they can make a second mortgage or sell it as they own it.

I did not have anything, no car, no house and a high rent, not because my 50m2 flat is good but I live in a cosmopolitan city.

I did not have mortgage but had rent and payments of my PhD. I did not own anything worthy to sell.

So, economically I was worse off 🙂

2. Socially, she has people around her, a supporting positive-thinking husband who encourages her to fight for her job. I did not even have a boyfriend 🙂 She has two kids who are lovely. I do not even own a cat or a flower 🙂

3. Psychologically, my whole life was my career. For her, it was no more than a money-making job. I had major depression, was on sick leave for 3 days although she was for months. On the third day, I received an informal call like hers and they said “You are kicked out”. No voting, no chance to fight for it. It just happened. The worst thing was that, my so-called colleagues did not even say something against it. I was the one who had hired some of them. Can you believe that ?

It is like being stabbed from everywhere…

All the depression plus my auto-immune diseases including fibromyalgia, leaky gut, IBS, alopecia areata, urticaria, lichen planus plus candida, migraines, food allergies, fatigue etc. it is a miracle that I am still alive 🙂

Look where I am now. Quite a breakthrough? No, but maybe some breakthrough. At least, I am trying. Thanks to you, I have a reason to write. Some days were harder than the others for the past month, and those days, the only reason that I woke up was to write my blog and “try to try”. 

Thank you for making me wanting to try everyday…

Love,

Alex