After a week of silence… I am back…

Well, it was a horrific week with lots of toothache, headache, tooth infection, fever, sleepless nights, lots of painkillers, 4 different antibiotics in a row, severe diarrhea and gas due to that, many many visits to the dental hospital, severe doses of anesthesia, 3 hours long dental operation, lots of bleeding, severe bone infection, fight with the landowner about contract renewal, having less than 100$ on bank account, unnecesary calls from the ex’es on Valentine’s Day (I guess they call everyone on their lists, and I basically told them to fuck off), severe fatigue, severe depression…

One of the worst days revisited…

This toothache is killing me head.

Another round of antibiotics are killing my gut.

My landowner sent me an SMS “Increase the rent payment 100% or get out”

I feel so alone today. I cannot fix anything.

It “kinda” follows like the movie…

I have good luck and bad luck at the same time.

One after another. Last week my dream job offer came, then happened the urticaria. It was itching & burning like hell! I had a dentist appointment that I missed as of the severe and constant itching all over. Went to a doctor about it and he said: “We don’t know why urticaria happens. (Doctors, eh?) Just take these antihistamines. There is no cure (I know hun) but you can manage the symptoms.” Another auto-immune! Well, I took those antihistamines and they made me sleep all day and forgot about the dental problem.

I am a case study even worse than Cotillard…

I’ve just watched 2 Days, 1 Night movie starring Marion Cotillard, who was laid off during her sick leave as she was suffering from depression. She was informed informally by her coworker about this. Very similar to my case. But…

As I look back now, my case was far worse than her:

1. Economically, she was married and her husband also works, they own their own place and car, so no rent but a mortgage, which they can make a second mortgage or sell it as they own it.

I did not have anything, no car, no house and a high rent, not because my 50m2 flat is good but I live in a cosmopolitan city.

I did not have mortgage but had rent and payments of my PhD. I did not own anything worthy to sell.

So, economically I was worse off 🙂

2. Socially, she has people around her, a supporting positive-thinking husband who encourages her to fight for her job. I did not even have a boyfriend 🙂 She has two kids who are lovely. I do not even own a cat or a flower 🙂

3. Psychologically, my whole life was my career. For her, it was no more than a money-making job. I had major depression, was on sick leave for 3 days although she was for months. On the third day, I received an informal call like hers and they said “You are kicked out”. No voting, no chance to fight for it. It just happened. The worst thing was that, my so-called colleagues did not even say something against it. I was the one who had hired some of them. Can you believe that ?

It is like being stabbed from everywhere…

All the depression plus my auto-immune diseases including fibromyalgia, leaky gut, IBS, alopecia areata, urticaria, lichen planus plus candida, migraines, food allergies, fatigue etc. it is a miracle that I am still alive 🙂

Look where I am now. Quite a breakthrough? No, but maybe some breakthrough. At least, I am trying. Thanks to you, I have a reason to write. Some days were harder than the others for the past month, and those days, the only reason that I woke up was to write my blog and “try to try”. 

Thank you for making me wanting to try everyday…

Love,

Alex

The ultimate lazy recipe added: “Altogether in”

Hello all,

As you know, I try everything. I have redefined lazy cooking with my last recipe.

This recipe is originally my father’s idea who happens to be a machine engineer 🙂

“Altogether in” recipe:

You add all the ingredients at once, no mixing before, no cooking before, no order of cooking.

The tip is very low heat.

Put fresh or frozen meat, onions, tomatoes, veggies, potatoes etc of your choice in some water 1-2 glasses (it does not even have to be boiled!)

Cook it at very low heat for 1-2 hours. That is the only rule…

If necessary, you can add boiled water while cooking, but if you use low heat it won’t be necessary at all.

That is it. Now you can burn your cookbooks 🙂

This is my first altogether in idea:

What has changed in a month? A lot!

A month ago, I started this blog. I wrote 10 things about me and it was very depressing to honestly admit that I have many problems. Now, I will make the first monthly evaluation. My comments of today are marked with red. Updated on Jan 23, 2015.

1. Single, white, female like the fucking movie. I am single, never been married, I live alone. I am fucking alone. Therefore, I have no personal life or career. What do I have?

I am still single 🙂 However, I do not feel alone. I have you dear reader! Actually, I enjoy my alone time a lot. I have many projects so I do not think about my single status that much. 

I have severe fibromyalgia, mitral valve pulmonerasis (heart disease), major depression, leaky gut syndrome, migraines, irritable bowel syndrome and the worst of it “candida albicans” throughout my digestive system. It is suprising that I haven’t died yet!

New recipe added: Snack time!

Lazy healthy sandwiches 

You can use this both as a breakfast idea and as an afternoon snack. It includes scrambled eggs so it will make you full until the next meal time. Takes 5 mins to cook & prepare.

New recipe added: Snack time!

How about some healthy snacks from Alex? Steam it and eat it 🙂

New recipe: Salmon soup with dill and brussel sprouts :)

How about some health? 

I recently made this and it is super easy & healthy.

I wrote how to cook it on the photo 🙂 That easy 🙂

Wow, I’ve reached 100 posts already in the first 3 weeks since I’ve started blogging :)

WP just said that I’ve reached 100 posts on my blog 🙂

So this is the 101st one 🙂

Silly but I liked it! I will celebrate it with some kefir as I cannot drink alcohol as I have a leaky gut 🙂

This is my home-made smoothie style kefir. Pinky as it has 1 teaspoon of fresh cherry juice left from the frozen sour cherries that I eat a small bit every day. So cheers!

Alex