After a week of silence… I am back…

Well, it was a horrific week with lots of toothache, headache, tooth infection, fever, sleepless nights, lots of painkillers, 4 different antibiotics in a row, severe diarrhea and gas due to that, many many visits to the dental hospital, severe doses of anesthesia, 3 hours long dental operation, lots of bleeding, severe bone infection, fight with the landowner about contract renewal, having less than 100$ on bank account, unnecesary calls from the ex’es on Valentine’s Day (I guess they call everyone on their lists, and I basically told them to fuck off), severe fatigue, severe depression…

It’s been a tough week…

I missed my thesis meetings, 2 at a row…

I just could not find the strength to write anything. I am just glad that I left it behind.

Today, I must start a new round of antibiotics and I am very very very sad about it as my gut is not so good. I got the dental operation but my face is swollen and my bones are aching. My dentist prescribed a very strong antibiotic for bone infections but she also said it will cause severe diarrhea. Well, I have no choice. I cannot eat anything as my mouth is aching all the time. So this week will not be easy either.

Also, the producers wanted me write another screenplay today and I have to work really hard to get it done. My head is aching like hell although my veins are full of painkillers. I am so tired. So so tired…

Last week I also made a decision to move to another house which is very far from the city center as it will not cost much. My stupid landowner doubled the rent and I really cannot deal with that idiot so I will basically find a cheaper place to stay. It will be hard for me to move out now but thank God, my family will help me.

I will now go out to buy my fucking painkillers and antibiotics. It will all begin again. Tough tough tough…

I need some luck…

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Alex - Project Lady

35 year old woman who has hit the rock bottom tryin to get up again and reach her 35 dreams I am a psychologist who suffers from major depression and severe fibromyalgia. It was all about career to me. But today, I have no job, no husband, no kids. Alone. And, I want to change my fucking life.

11 thoughts on “After a week of silence… I am back…”

  1. My dear, this too shall pass. I understand and have experienced at least most of what you are, but not all at once. I’m thinking you are on the brink of a brilliant work. Sometimes, we are tested (by, let’s say… life). These tests happen right before a major breakthrough for us. The strength and wisdom we get through these tests turn out to be essential for us to make that breakthrough. I hope you get feeling better.
    Also, the fact that you missed writing during these circumstances tells me you are a “writer”; not just someone who writes. You were thinking about writing even in the midst of the shit pit. I tell you, you have a great work about to burst out of you.

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  2. After reading this I realized I missed Valentine’s hm, oh well. Its okay to not be ok but you do sound like you have things at least going in the same direction.


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