I took this photo on Monday, but it became more meaningful for me today. I really want a slice of freedom today. So, I will go for a walk at the seaside. Like a seagull, I will hang without planning further for just a couple of hours. Seize the day 🙂
As you remember, I recently regained my successfully lost pounds back in the past week.
I started with 130lbs on 23rd Dec 2015.
Lost 10lbs and I was 120lbs on 2nd Jan 2015.
Gained them back on and reached 128lbs on 10th Jan 2015.
Lost some of that gained and today I am 123lbs on 13rd Jan 2015.
Yes with some setbacks due to toothache + antibiotics + painkillers + oversleeping + less movement + depressed eating I was a little bit out of route. Now, I am getting back to my project.
A few people said that my happiness should not be measured by lbs or kgs, I should be happy with what I am…
Why the hell I am doing this life changing project then? Of course I am not happy with what I am 🙂 That is why I have 35 projects to go… I just cannot understand people sometimes 🙂
Thank God, there are many people here supporting me. Thank you so much for your support. I did not give up! I may change my deadline for weightloss as I don’t want to rush myself that much and lose my health again. Maybe 15th of February will replace my ex-deadline 31st Jan 2015 for ideal weight project.
Yes I failed myself during the past week about weight control.
I’ve gained almost all the weight I’ve lost as I spent my days in bed at home, sick, with toothache, with antibiotics + probiotics, oversleeping, some crying for hairloss due to alopecia areata, some victimizing myself etc etc.
Candida of course is back again, I did everything I could but the antibiotics won.
So, where am I? I am as sick as the first day when I started blogging but something is different now. I am not as helpless as in the first day which was about 20 days ago.
Everything is as shitty as it was, but I am less helpless.
What has been changed in less than a month about me?
I’ve not been changed that much but now I have an audience, followers who support me, people who care for me, take some of their precious time to read this. As more of you are added in my life, I became less helpless and grew stronger towards the setbacks and obstacles.
I have more trust in myself now although I failed again in some of my projects. They will get better. I am sure of that.
Because YOU are increasing in my life and YOU give me this motivation.
Thank you dear reader,
You cannot imagine, by just reading this, how helpful you are to change someone’s life.
Remember my weightloss project? I modified my target weight:
2. IDEAL WEIGHT PROJECT. Be 100105lbs & size 4 again, which is my ideal size since I am 5’3” (160cm) and that is tiny :))) My deadline to reach that is end of January 2015. However, I will not do a speed diet or anything. I just keep on what I eat and walk everyday. The goal does not end here of course, keeping that size throughout the year is the real deal. Daily exercise included 🙂 (first posted on December 23rd, 2014)
Modified on Jan 2nd, 2015 as I do not want to be unhealthily thin, I checked the BMI of my target 100lbs. It looks that it is underweight and not that healthy. According to my BMI, I should not be under 7st6lbs so I chose 7st7lbs which is 105lbs or 47.5kgs 🙂 Therefore, goal modified! 105lbs it is 🙂 I don’t think that it would change size. Well we will see…