After a week of silence… I am back…

Well, it was a horrific week with lots of toothache, headache, tooth infection, fever, sleepless nights, lots of painkillers, 4 different antibiotics in a row, severe diarrhea and gas due to that, many many visits to the dental hospital, severe doses of anesthesia, 3 hours long dental operation, lots of bleeding, severe bone infection, fight with the landowner about contract renewal, having less than 100$ on bank account, unnecesary calls from the ex’es on Valentine’s Day (I guess they call everyone on their lists, and I basically told them to fuck off), severe fatigue, severe depression…

Continue reading After a week of silence… I am back…

Today is one of the bad days, but not dead yet…

I am not happy today. It was all going good. Now I am back to where I was 3 weeks ago.

My stomach aches, I have severe diarrhea due to antibiotics although I have many supplements of probiotics etc.

As an extra, I have a fever due to tooth infection and 2 new cold sores appeared today because of that. I also have a sinus infection. So, pain doubled in my head.

I was watching Avengers and all I was thinking during the movie was: “Oh Thor, can you come and hit my jar with your hammer and end this please?”

A new one is added to my long list of auto-immunes, I now have Alopecia areata too. I am losing my hair. Doctor says that it could be another fungal infection or just without reason.

I’ve read website of National AA Foundation and try not to cry right now.

My hair is already very short and now I will shave it all. It looks so bad mostly on the left side in the front.

I will put garlic on my scalp but it will take time to regrow (if it regrows I hope)

Today, is not a good one. But I will keep on writing and trying. Not dead yet…

Love,

Alex