What has changed in a month? A lot!

A month ago, I started this blog. I wrote 10 things about me and it was very depressing to honestly admit that I have many problems. Now, I will make the first monthly evaluation. My comments of today are marked with red. Updated on Jan 23, 2015.

1. Single, white, female like the fucking movie. I am single, never been married, I live alone. I am fucking alone. Therefore, I have no personal life or career. What do I have?

I am still single 🙂 However, I do not feel alone. I have you dear reader! Actually, I enjoy my alone time a lot. I have many projects so I do not think about my single status that much. 

I have severe fibromyalgia, mitral valve pulmonerasis (heart disease), major depression, leaky gut syndrome, migraines, irritable bowel syndrome and the worst of it “candida albicans” throughout my digestive system. It is suprising that I haven’t died yet!

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May you help me choose what to do?

I could not sleep yesterday and ate loads of chocolates and drank approx. a gallon of coffee and now I am a little bit over-energized.

I want to use this energy in something good since I have been feeling really bad and sick with fibromyalgia in the last week.

So what should I do today? Here are the options:

I can sleep (I think i can sleep but surely i will be seeing nightmares because of high sugar and caffeine in my veins)

I can clean the house, wash dishes, do the laundary etc. (Stupid stuff to make myself tired enough to go to sleep)

I can watch a movie or read a book but this is what I have done for the last few weeks.

I can write down my dreams and projects to achieve this year.

I can draw, sketch (but my eyes are acheing)

HELP ME CHOOSE PLEAAASEEE…