Ok, ok I admit that I’ve become lazy :)

I was quite lazy about my projects this last week but I have some excuses. I was sick for 3 days, I wasted my time on a date for 2 days, and I was a lazy bitch for 2 days. My excuses are not very good 🙂

So I should be getting my butt up and get to work.

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I decided to be alone this year…

I do not know why but men have been quite interested in me recently. I do not even feel beautiful that much these days. Within this last week (after my disasterous date experience) quite a few people around me have been constantly calling, asking me out etc. I told them very honestly that I want something for the rest of my life and I am done with dating. I want to get settled down when I feel sure of someone.

relax - CopySo I have kept my distance towards them and this honesty really worked fine for me. Men started to act more respectful. I told them that we were friends, they do not owe me any promises and they can do whatever they want with their lives. They started to call me more?!?!

I really do not understand men.

I do not understand the women who made them this way either.

I just want a peaceful life with myself this year. It will be my 3rd year alone and I have no room for disappointments. So, decided to keep my distance. First, I want a trustful friendship, maybe later, in time, it will grow as a relationship. If it won’t I would not be crying.

So, let’s get to business and projects 🙂 No men, no cry 🙂

Love,

Alex

Nope, he turned out to be “just the same as others”…

I haven’t included “love” or “a relationship” in my projects because I don’t think they should be handled like a goal/project. Love should be magical and sudden. It should be surprising and full of excitement.

This does not mean I do not want love in my life, but I want to go slow. 

I’ve met someone 3 days ago. He was super nice to me. Very kind and keen to meet. Our first date was very promising as we talked and laughed a lot. I told him about my fears about getting hurt again and he said ok.

He wanted to see me the next day and we met again.

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I am afraid of loving again but decided to be brave…

For quite some time, I was alone. I chose to be. As I was really hurt after my last boyfriend who cheated on me about 2 years ago with some girl inferior and legitimizing himself as “You are so damn clever and beautiful, you have a better career and education. These are too much for me. I just want to feel needed by a girl” I stopped looking for love.

I’ve never cared for the materials in a relationship so I did not have a checklist to be filled about who is suitable for me or not, but I acted with my feelings and intuition of being one with another. Was that a crime?

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