My self-portrait for January 2015

January was about being content with my loneliness and healing.

What’s better than nature for healing?

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Self portrait – Jan 2015

I spent my 2 days of this last week out in nature every day.

My hair has grown a little.

I had some disappointments in the past few days.

I know it will pass. I will never let anyone make me feel bad so I got rid of him.

I came to myself with your help.

At the end, it is me, myself and you dear reader 🙂 

Thank you for making me love me again.

Alex

From “stupid” to “strong” Alex :)

After writing about “him who hurt me” on my blog, I deleted his number and put it in Autoreject list, also blocked him from Instagram, Whatsapp and Facebook in 5 minutes.

lamassu-37940_640 - CopyI am proud of my decision for not letting him contact me ever again. I will let noone hurt me.

After several hours, he tried to call many times (as I saw on Autoreject notifications) and sent me several SMS (I do not know how to block them :)) He is still trying to understand why I did this. I did not even care to explain.

Thank you for being there for me. I felt really strong with your support!

Love you reader! I feel like Lamassu is protecting me.

Strong Alex 🙂

Nope, he turned out to be “just the same as others”…

I haven’t included “love” or “a relationship” in my projects because I don’t think they should be handled like a goal/project. Love should be magical and sudden. It should be surprising and full of excitement.

This does not mean I do not want love in my life, but I want to go slow. 

I’ve met someone 3 days ago. He was super nice to me. Very kind and keen to meet. Our first date was very promising as we talked and laughed a lot. I told him about my fears about getting hurt again and he said ok.

He wanted to see me the next day and we met again.

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Today I will be wishing more…

I am forcing myself to wish for more and more positive things. I now believe that I get what I wish for. All this time, I thought my realistic side made me strong but it was making me miserable.

When I find myself pitying for me again, I distract my mind for the better things to expect.

So I wish myself a great Sunday with full of sun. It is sunny outside and I am going to the beach today. I will walk for 5-6 hours, read my book and have myself a nice day.

Please do yourself a favor today and postpone your worries to Monday 🙂 Get depressed tomorrow, not today. Have fun & peace like it is your last day.

I love you all,

Alex

New recipe added: Snack time!

Lazy healthy sandwiches 

You can use this both as a breakfast idea and as an afternoon snack. It includes scrambled eggs so it will make you full until the next meal time. Takes 5 mins to cook & prepare.

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I am getting happier and healthier for no particular reason :)

My misearable life is changing since that seagull under the plane. It was the first time in years I felt myself really lucky and blessed to catch that frame.

Now, although I still have health problems I try to live healthy and believe that I will get better every day.

Yesterday I was out, walking and meeting some friends. While on my way I saw my favorite swing in the park and I could not resist 🙂 I swinged like a happy child with laughter, dreamed of and prayed for the better days to come for me, family and friends.

Continue reading I am getting happier and healthier for no particular reason 🙂

5 Things a Woman on a Diet Hates to Hear from her Man

My first guest-author experience on a friend’s blog 🙂 http://acedigest.com
Thanks Ace 🙂

Ace

I’m in my third week of my Blogging 101 class. I’ve met lots of great bloggers and even made some friends. To be honest, I never expected the experience to be so interactive. It’s great to see so many different approaches to this art. Some bloggers are storytellers, others aim to inform. To each his/her own. Some even offer help and advice to rookie bloggers like myself…

One of them is Alex- Project Lady from My 35 Project, who has helped me fine-tune my project a lot thus far.  She also offered to guest post on my blog. Here is her post. It fits in perfectly with what I want to offer my readers.


5 Things a Woman on a Diet Hates to Hear from her Man

 
1. “Oh honey! You are not that fat!”
One of the worst things to say to a woman. That fat? That fat? It’s…

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Some good things are happening to me :) Feeling blessed!

Yesterday, when I was coming home from the university, where I had a meeting with my PhD thesis supervisor, I realized that I should start working again sometime. I was thinking about a teaching position at the same university; however, I was late to apply for the position for the Spring 2015 term. Therefore, I should wait until Fall 2015 and that would be too far.

I got some full time job offers for managerial positions from various companies; however, I know that I am in no condition working 8 to 5 again. I should do something more creative and more flexible. So, although my reserves are going down, I turned the offers down too.

I tried to think positively about it since I am still not well, maybe teaching right now is not the best option for me.

One of the best I've ever caught :)
One of the best I’ve ever caught 🙂

I decided to watch the sky and the birds instead 🙂 I dreamt about good days to come. I took some photos and felt blissful for the chance to take one of my favorite photos so far 🙂 I was happy, I was smiling with no reason but this chance to catch a bird and a plane together flying 🙂

Soon after, an old colleague of me called me and told me that she found a creative, flexible, R&D consulting job for me if I am interested. I said yes and felt blessed again for the opportunity.

So, I smiled again.

Thank you 🙂

Alex

Wow, I’ve reached 100 posts already in the first 3 weeks since I’ve started blogging :)

WP just said that I’ve reached 100 posts on my blog 🙂

So this is the 101st one 🙂

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Silly but I liked it! I will celebrate it with some kefir as I cannot drink alcohol as I have a leaky gut 🙂

This is my home-made smoothie style kefir. Pinky as it has 1 teaspoon of fresh cherry juice left from the frozen sour cherries that I eat a small bit every day. So cheers!

Alex

Changes in looks…

I recently shaved my head, so that is the first change in my looks 🙂

Today I will be working on looks. I will be trying some beauty recipes for me 🙂

Also I am thinking of changing my blog theme to a more aesthetic one.

Tomorrow, after 10 very sick days at home, I will go out for some fresh air. Oh, I need this so much…

I am about to forget how it feels to be outdoors 🙂

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My toothinfection is healed so time to visit the dentist for a cure.

My gut is not that bad too, no gas no diarrhea, just normal feeling. I used so many probiotics including Solgar’s Advanced Multi-Billion Dophilus and I think they worked well. I also did my daily rub with tea tree oil to prevent candida on my tongue during antibiotics treatment. I ate probiotic yoghurt 5-6 times a day with my super-healthy easy cabbage meal.

So I think I am doing good.

Love,

Alex